i thaught of you and closed my eyes and prayed to god today, I asked what makes a mother? and i know i heard him say, a mother has a baby we know this is true but god, how can you be a mother when your baby is not with you yes you can he replyed with confidence in his voice, i give many women babies, when they leave its not their choice, some i send for a life time and others for a day and some i send to feel your womb but theres no need to stay i just dont understand this god, i want my baby here he took a deep breath and cleared his throat and then i saw a tear, I wish i could show you what your child is doing here if you could see your child and smile with other children and say we go to earth to learn our lesson of love life and fear, but my mummy loved me so much i got to come straight here, I feel so lucky to have a mum who has so much love for me, i learned my lesson very quick my mummy set me free, i miss my mummy oh so much, but i visit her each day when she goes to sleep, on her pillow is were i lay i stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and wisper in her ear mummy please please dont be sad today im your baby and im here so you see my dear sweet one, your children are ok your babies are here in my home and this is were they will stay they will wait for you with me untill your lessons there are through and on the day you come home they'll be at the gates waiting for you.